Life is FAR from Perfect

I just don't even know where to even start with this post. Life isn't all rainbows and glitter right now. I have never been so stressed out in my whole life. This whole getting out of the military has become such a headache.

We moved all the way across the country. For a job that the Mister got the offer for, but is waiting for ONE DUDE to get off his ass and let the company know that the Mister is approved to enter the building. ONE.FUCKING.DUDE. It's been two months and the company is still waiting on him. What does this mean? It means my husband isn't working. It means there isn't any money coming in. It means there are bills that are going to be coming and savings that is getting drained. It means stress. It means fighting with each other because we are both aggravated and we have no one else to take it out on. I means tears, lots of them! I have cried almost every single night. I have been on edge. I am not happy. Not at all. Not in the least bit.

I am sick of living in hotels, we have been in hotels for two weeks now. I want my stuff. I want my kids to have their stuff. I want them to have room to run and play and laugh and scream and not have to worry about disrupting the people around us. I want my dog to be able to go outside without me. I want to eat a dinner that I cooked, on my table, on my plates. I am DONE!

There is a "thing" happening that I cannot talk about yet. (( Nothing to do with family, just a "thing" that is taking time to work out. )) I am starting to feel like this "thing" is what is really supposed to be happening. This "thing" is causing so much stress. So many "what if" conversations. I am ready for this "thing" to be figured out so we can move past it. It's one BIG HUGE mountain that is in our way of complete happiness, but it has to be done in order for us to know that we are doing the right "thing". Confusing right? Don't worry, all will come out in due time.

There are GOOD things going on. Dan DOES have a job. Which many guys that have gotten out are having a VERY hard time finding. We have a home. It's no where NEAR what we wanted, but it's a home and the price is great! Dan's childhood friend is stationed here at Fort Gordon. He and his family have been a HUGE HUGE help to us with this move! The kids all get along great, I really like his wife, and Dan is just beyond happy to have his friend so close. It really has been a blessing to have them. 

I know I am normally "Mrs Brightside" see the good in everything, and trust me I am trying SO SO SO very hard. I just need life to get back to normal. For us to get into our home. To get back into our routine. Once this and this lingering "thing" happen I am sure I will feel a lot better. But for now, yea excuse me if I am not happy-go-lucky Brooke right now.